我做了一个噩梦，醒来的时候我32岁了。

醒来后，发现这个梦也没那么可怕。32岁也没有那么可怕。

在每段感情结束后，我都被彻底的摧毁，似乎从未有完全复原过。

我被那些细小的，毫无意义的，不起眼的细节掌控，它们或许是夏天吹来的一阵风，秋天的一片落叶，行人路过的洗衣粉味道，它们出现在一个平常的午日，不经意的将我拖回某个特定的时间，某个特定的情景，某个我和你共同存在的画面。我似乎从未好过。

好像死掉了，那些微弱的，柔软的东西死掉了。在每段感情结束的时候蚕食我的一小部分，再也无法拼凑一个完整的我。

人们恋爱，人们分手。

人们挥挥手，拍拍屁股，说了再见，转头轻易的走进另一段感情。好像没有爱过，好像没有被爱过。

我也希望自己那样。

我不希望自己那样。

我来为你唱首歌，是我内心的忧伤，是我害怕的心房，是我哭泣的脸庞。

最害怕自己再没有爱的能力和勇气。

People just have an affair, or even entire relationships.

They break up and they forget.

They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never able to forget anyone I have been with. Because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone, what is lost is lost. Each relationship when it ends really vanishes me. I was never fully recovery. That's why I am very careful getting involve because it's hurts 华尔兹的歌词 Let me sing you a waltz Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts Let me sing you a waltz About this one night stand You were for me that night Everything I always dreamt of in life But now you're gone You are far gone All the way to your island of rain It was for you just a one night thing But you were much more to me Just so you know I hear rumors about you About all the bad things you do But when we were together alone You didn’t seem like a player at all I don't care what they say I know what you meant for me that day I just wanted another try I just wanted another night Even if it doesn't seem quite right You meant for me much more Than anyone I've met before One single night with you little Jesse Is worth a thousand with anybody I have no bitterness, my sweet I'll never forget this one night thing Even tomorrow, in other arms My heart will stay yours until I die Let me sing you a waltz Out of nowhere, out of my blues Let me sing you a waltz About this lovely one night stand